没有记忆的父亲/梁小萍(赵金基译）

程思良

没有记忆的父亲/梁小萍
　　
　　我上小学时，爸爸书柜有了许多回忆录。我问：“这些是谁的回忆录？”爸爸说：“这些回忆录是我老领导写的，他们都是从长征走过来的。”我说：“爸爸不是也长征过吗？为什么不写？”爸爸说：“不用写。”
　　我上中学时，爸爸书柜多了许多回忆录。我问：“这些是谁的回忆录？”爸爸说：“这些回忆录是我老战友写的，他们参加了抗日战争。”我说：“爸爸不是也参加了抗日战争吗？为什么不写？”爸爸说：“不用写。”
　　我上大学时，爸爸书柜又多了许多回忆录。我问：“这些是谁的回忆录？”爸爸说：“这些回忆录是我老部下写的，他们参加了解放战争。”我说：“爸爸不是也参加了解放战争吗？为什么不写？”爸爸说：“不用写。”
　　我工作多年，爸爸书柜到处都是回忆录。我问：“这些是谁的回忆录？”爸爸说：“这些回忆录是我小战友写的，他们参加了祖国的建设。”我说：“爸爸不是也参加了祖国建设吗？为什么不写？”爸爸说：“不用写。”
　　爸爸一天天老迈，病床上的老爸奄奄一息，我心疼：“老爸，我们对你的一生了解得太少了，你为什么不把你的经历写下来呢？”
　　爸爸轻轻说：“爸爸从参军那天起，从事的都是有关国家军事机密的工作。爸爸的一生，没有属于个人的记忆。”
　　
　　Memoirs
　　
　　By Liang Xiaoping
　　
　　While at primary school, I found some memoirs in my dad’s bookcase. “Who wrote these books?” I asked. “My seniors. They have gone through the Long March.” said my dad. “But you joined in the Long March, too. Why don’t you write your memoir?” I said. “I needn’t.” said my dad.
　　While at high school, I found more memoirs in my dad’s bookcase. “Who wrote these books?” I asked. “My mates. They have fought the Anti-Japanese War.” said my dad. “But didn’t you fight the Anti-Japanese War, too? Why don’t you write your memoir?” I said. “I needn’t.” said my dad.
　　While at college, I found still more memoirs in my dad’s bookcase. “Who wrote these books?” I asked. “My subordinates. They have fought the Liberation War.” said my dad. “But didn’t you fight the Liberation War, too? Why don’t you write your memoir?” I said. “I needn’t.” said my dad.
　　While working these years, I found my dad’s bookcase completely filled with memoirs. “Who wrote these books?” I asked. “My junior mates. They have participated in the construction of Motherland.” said my dad. “But didn’t you participate in the construction of Motherland, too? Why don’t you write your memoir?” I said. “I needn’t.” said my dad.
　　Aging day after day, my dad was finally coming to his life’s end. “Dad, we know very little about your whole life; why don’t you write down your experiences?” I suggested, gazing at my dad on the hospital bed.
　　“Since I joined the army, I’ve been engaged in confidential work in national military. For all my life, I have had no memories of my own.”
　　

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